A 5 minute video on alcohol addiction and recovery.

(contemplative piano music) [Man] – When you're an alcoholic and you stop, especially when you crash You go back twice as bad as you were, and you go back exactly where you stopped

(contemplative piano music) Well, I was born in 1940 and I was raised by a very different type of mother And I grew up in an atmosphere where everybody drank and I thought that drinking was normal Every movie I went to see, they had a cocktail in their hand The first thing that people said when you knocked on the door when you went to visit was, "What'll you have to drink?" And it seemed quite normal because everybody did that Everybody in my circles anyways

It was a lubricant for me It was a stimulus, in a way It put me in a mindset where I could expand my thinking A lot of the very good decisions I made, were always made with a double of Chivas Regal And I thought it was perfectly natural, "this is the way things go

" And when you're start being a practicing alcoholic and you step over the invisible line that you don't know about because you're denying it, you start to realize how many people you're effecting Because, the people that are living with you are actually not living with you, they're living with a puppet that is controlled by alcoholism Now I need this stuff to get through life, and life is throwing some pretty nasty curves With my first wife, the mother of my children, developing Alzheimer's, I didn't know how the heck to deal with that, I really didn't When you start to turn the page, and start to realize that the Ivan Smirnoff, as I used to refer to him, is no longer your friend

He's screwing up your life a little bit And that takes quite a while, because he's been a good buddy for quite a while So you've got to cross the line where you get rid of that, and start to deal with the world with the real you that you are (soaring string music) Then I met my second wife, who, in exchange for her love and support, insisted that I stop drinking She was a smart woman

She caught me at the end of one of my falls, and I put myself in a treatment center for a month and I came out feeling top of the world, so I stayed sober for 16 years It's so weird it was not a problem all of a sudden And like it became a very productive part of my life Then she died in my arms with liver cancer Well, that wasn't fun

So, where did I go to? My old friend Ivan Guess what happened? You know, the next time I had a gig I ordered a glass of wine, or a bottle of wine, I forget Sure enough, two months later, I was was back into the mickey a day and full Ivan was my friend again When you're an alcoholic and you stop, especially when you crash, and then you go back

You go back twice as bad as you were, and you go back exactly where you stopped (somber piano music) I finally realized that, in the few years that I probably have left, I don't wanna crash, and if I would have kept on drinking, I would have crashed And that required that I get very serious, and very adult and (sighs) get rid of the little boy in me who just couldn't face the fact that he had this problem And since I've done that, I've acquired, sort of like an epiphany, I've acquired a different value of my life, and I enjoy it So, and sometimes now, since I'm sober, I sit and I say to my partner, my ex-wife who lives with me, I'm just humming

I'm just humming with pure joy of my good health, which is remarkable, after what I put it through, and the fact that I can be at peace What excites me now, very much, is the effect I have on people I can, I can turn people around and make them smile, and I know I'm helping them I know that they feel happy that they've met me (inspirational orchestral music)

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